Err , i dun want my mom and my dad to know that their little princess is being fucking crushed right now . I dun want them to feel sorry for me , when i go downstairs i gave them a fake smile and then locked myself in my room crying and crying . Thats all what im capable to do and nothin more the same goes to my buddyz all this while they are the one who supported me its my own mistake for doing what my heart tells me to do and and not listen to my head had tell me to do . Yeahh this is what i get , i try hardly to get up forget all the things but the memory seems to came back and haunted me .  Oh god , pleasee make me stronger and and please let me be the girl i used to be .